May 31, 2009 § 2 Comments
I lie a lot on this blog. I’ve learned how to tell half-truths. Photographs are matched with words; often a narrative is formed here that didn’t exist in “real time.”
I’ve developed a blog persona. Every blog serves a purpose for its blogger. I see no good reason to project my negativity, sadness, or despair into public space, but that doesn’t mean that doing such a thing serves no function; it just isn’t for me. I’ve developed a fictional self, maybe a self who I’d prefer to be, an angle or a slice of me. “Persona” means mask, and my blog is one of the only masks I know how to wear to protect myself.
I guess I feel guilty about this. But every blogger decides the limits to what she will share with readers.
My blog provides a good challenge for me to see the positive, to recreate the story in a way that I wish it could be. Sometimes that challenge feels too impossible, immoral, and deceitful.